Do you ever go through a day and think back about how utterly embarrassed you are? Embarrassed about the way you handled a situation, what you said, what you did or how you acted?
Yep, today is one of those days. Today is one of those days where the little ones were able to wear me down, to get to me and I turned into the teacher I never want to be. The teacher that I am embarrassed of. I did not show love to these precious little ones. I did not help them feel important and special. I did not show them that I love them and that I care.
As I sit in my dark classroom with soft piano music is playing, I cannot help but let tears run down my cheeks. It breaks my heart thinking back on it now. Especially, knowing that today is Friday and these precious little ones are going home for a whole weekend. I do not know what their homes are like, I do not if they get hugs and smiles, I do not know how they are spoken to. And frankly, I cannot control that either. However, I can control what I do, what I say and how I say them.
I am so thankful for God's grace today. He loves these little ones even more than I do and He is watching over each and every one of them. He knows that I fail, but He has my back and through the ugliness He is able to show love to these precious little ones. I cannot take back the day, but I can change Monday! Ahhhh... a fresh start!
I am thankful for second chances, for God's grace and for the hearts of little children.
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